Reflections, on my Real Persona

Two posts in one day, inspired by changes in the music list, the two I mention, remind me of very different things. Yet they are somehow related in hiding and refelecting a different front to the world. The interview Rob Williams part of madonna (do watch the video)reminds me of myself hiding behind different personality traits. Going from a happy outgoing young child who would stand on a chair and sing to everyone to another just a few years on a very different 7 year old, made to feel self aware of all my supposed short comings and looks. This carried on into the teenage years to the fact that I would be physically sick at the prospect of going out and socialising, its always been there. I married a very well balanced super man who enjoyed life , I remember one evening coming home and trying to explain how I hadn't really enjoyed the evening as much as it appeared ( Life and Soul of the party Persona being Worn to full effect) and of course upsetting him, he really couldn't understand it. So I found its best not to confide,
as you usually upset people who matter, but you all now know and thats the truth of it. I'm very shy, I don't really enjoy partying unless I have the party face firmly grafted on, then sometimes I really do have fun, which is good, that I can shake it off now and again..
The Lola song reminds me of Danny, who was so shocked when I pointed out, what the Lola song he was merrily singing was all about, he still loved to sing it, a favourite song, good one Dan Williams. :)